Justin Bieber has a song called “Ghost” and when I heard the lyrics, they really spoke to me. Then I watched the video (it’s the story of a grandmother and grandson mourning the loss of the grandpa) and I was crying so hard. The lyrics that really get to me are:
Youngblood thinks there's always tomorrow
I miss your touch on nights when I'm hollow
I know you crossed a bridge that I can't follow
Since the love that you left is all that I get
I want you to know that if I can't be close to you
I settle for the ghost of you
I miss you more than life (more than life)
And if you can't be next to me
Your memory is ecstasy
I miss you more than life
I miss you more than life.
As I was listening to this song a few days ago and thinking about it, I just started laughing. Because you were not a fan of Justin Bieber AT ALL! The fact that a song he sings reminds me so much of you…well, it’s just really kind of hilarious. But the words are just so true, especially the “I miss you more than life”. Because I do miss you every day.
Today is the anniversary of the day we saw the oncologist for the first time. I will never forget the words “Your cancer is treatable, but not curable. This is serious enough that you need to get your end-of-life affairs in order.” I am thankful for the 3 ½ years we had together after that. But I definitely miss you more than life.
Link to the song: