18 Months

2-18-22
Dear Tom,
Today it has been 18 months since you left us.
1 ½ years
549 days
13,176 hours
790,560 minutes
Since I last saw you. Since I last held your hand. Since I last hugged you. I do not think there has been a day in the last year and a half that I have not cried at least once about how much I miss you. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve had plenty of happy moments too. But even those are a little bittersweet because I cannot share them with you.

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Recently, I wrote this poem:
You are gone
I was just hit,
With a wave,
Of missing you.
Wish I could
Pretend I don’t miss you,
But I do.
Your kind eyes,
Your loving smile,
Your gentle hands.
Sometimes the pain,
Is like a tiny needle,
In my heart.
But sometimes it’s,
Like a million needles,
All poking my heart,
Together,
To remind me that…
You are gone.